I love him

But it was never

You and me forever

We could be 50

Stranded on the same island

And still never meant to be

Yet I still love him

I long to be the one who makes him whole

Yet it’s like a puzzle

I’m just the wrong piece

I’m blinded

Lost in a rerun of the notebook

I can’t stop hoping

Thinking maybe 5 years from now

You’ll walk back into my life

Complete the love story we started

But who am I kidding

I am trapped falling deeper in love with you

While your feet are firmly planted in the ground

I know that your 1st love doesn’t last

But I knew he was the one

Yet his heart beats to another drum

I wanted kids, the mini-van and the whole package

Because he made me happy

Heart aching blood rushing happy

Though knowing I never did that for him

Kills me

Yet I still love him

And I will never stop

For the hole in my heart

Is of his silhouette

And no one can fill the absence of him.