False Pretense (My Daily Struggles)

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    Yeah, I struggle with anorexia on a daily basis. I am doing my best to overcome it...

    False Pretense (My Daily Struggles)

     I'm not pretty enough.
    I'm too fat.
    I have acne.
    I'm not good enough.

    Throw on all the makeup
    Throw away all the food
    Go days and days without it
    I have to lose weight!

    Cake on the base,
    Cake on the eyeliner,
    Cake on the eyeshadow
    And the mascara

    Fake a smile everyday
    Pretend everything's fine
    Become obsessed with it
    Hide all the tears

    Haven't eaten in weeks,
    No one seems to notice the change
    Start to purge everything
    No one cares about me

    Yes, I am smiling outside,
    But I'm dying inside.
    I hide my sickness
    Hide it with laughter.

    So drained,
    So depressed,
    So sick,
    So unhealthy...

    I never thought it'd get this far,
    I've lost everything I had...
    Just threw it away...
    Just to feel beautiful and loved.

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    MootPoint commented on False Pretense (My Daily Struggles)

    04-13-2011

    There was someone in the audience of American Idol that was sent to the back because she was told she was too big. She is 5'5" and 150 lbs. People can be so mean. I hope you feel beautiful and loved without the approval of others. Take Care, Al
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    ShadowEyes

    04/13/2011

    that's crazy... seriously? 150.. they act like it's morbidly obese, and it's not. I hate people like that, you know? They make fun of you because you're just a LITTLE overweight? I mean, come on, grow up... thanks for the comment though :)

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