I'm Not Laughing


  • shanny8917
  • My own two favorite poems are "Train of Defeat" and "The Story of Sorrow"

I'm Not Laughing

I'm not depressed or feeling blue.
Truth be told...I'm pissed at you.
My anger could not be more true.
It blinds me from what I know I should do.
     I thought that you meant all that you said.
     You must admit that you lied instead.
     You knew just what I needed fed;
     relentless til you filled my head.
I fell in love with you no doubt.
"Stay away!" my heart did shout.
I should have known what you're about.
Instead I should have blocked you out.
     Now once again I sit alone.
     Your actions I cannot condone.
     You refuse to call this place our home.
     All you want to do is roam.
Each day you find a way to use.
I fight the urge but always lose.
I loved you.  Now I pay the dues.
It does not seem to affect you.
     You claim you want to be with me.
     When times are tough you always flee.
     But you are there when things are free.
     Then you leave me here, lonely.
Just when I say I need you most,
abandonement becomes my host.
No longer having the right to boast,
to you I'm nothing but a joke.


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BringMeBullets commented on I'm Not Laughing


The anger and passion in this one shines bright enough to blind the sun... Very impressive. I love the rhymes and story that keeps you hanging on until the end. I will admit that I did giggle when you said "Truth be told... I'm pissed at you." Overall, an amazing write. A ten from me.

Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

shanny8917’s Poems (19)

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Illusions Of My Marriage 5
I Can't Believe Its You 1
Who Am I? 2
You Ruined Me 2
The Devil Can Kiss My Ass 3
Coming To Terms 4
The Train of Defeat 4
That Door 1
Freedom 1
Actor 2
My Heart 4
Senses 0
Comfort 1
Sorrow (The Story Of) 2
Past Future 1
I'm Not Laughing 1
We'll Never Know 1
Home 3
You Were The One 1