So something has been happening to me lately
Something that hasn’t happened in the longest time
Lately I’ve been waking up with you on my mind
& Every time I wondered if you were ok
I thought to myself
It’s nothing & it will go away
But as I went on with my daily routine, you were still there
In the back of my mind, & now I’m thinking to myself
What’s been going on with me these past couple of days?
Why are you on my mind, when about me you don’t even care
All these thoughts have me feeling a little down
Wondering about life & mostly why we ended up this way
It’s sad when I think about all the years we spent together
Sad because, I always thought that no matter what
We’d always be there for each other
I wonder why you hate me so much
When at times, I still miss the feel of your touch
Even though we both have moved on
& I’ve found my happiness
I just can’t help but wonder if you have found the same
Every night I pray that you have
Cause the thoughts of you being unhappy sometimes drives me insane
I’ll never hate you even though people tell me I should
I just can’t find myself ever feeling that way
& I wouldn’t want to even if I could,
I still have hope for us
But not in that way,
I hope that we can work things out
& I’d love for us to be friends one day
Because together we shared so many dreams
Some we made come true
But most importantly together
We brought into this world a beautiful little girl
Who always reminds me of you
& WE owe it to her
To make her life as easy as possible,
Instead of making her feel like she has to choose
Choose between her mother & her father
She has enough to deal with, & no matter what happens
In the end she’s the only one who really does lose
I don’t know if you will ever read this
But if you do, put yourself in her shoes
& Think about how it feels to be her
To everyday wish she could have
Her family back together