"Laurie: Suicide Lasts For Lifetimes"

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Sorry that I can't do anything about the format here. I posted this long ago. At that time I received 3 emails. Two from people that said my poem made them reconsider and give things more thought, the other said flat out that he was just about to kill himself when he read "Laurie" and that I had made him change his mind and decide to live. What a wonderful thing that is.

"Laurie: Suicide Lasts For Lifetimes"

My Dear Friends, I realize that the following poem concerns an unpleasant subject. However, considering the response it has been receiving, it is proving to be, perhaps, the most important poem I've ever written. I decided to publish it in this public setting in the hopes of reaching out to those who it may touch, as is my wish for all of the poetry I've written. If the poem below causes even one reader stop and think, then it will have served its purpose. Thank You. In Christ... Sam Hyde


"Laurie"
[Suicide Lasts Lifetimes]

 
I sit by the phone
the silent line calls your name
if the roots of your death
grow as deep
as the pain I feel
every tree that's now young
will be as dead as the lives
redefined in the moment
that lasts forever
in which you broke
your mothers heart
many other hearts too
by ending your life
SUICIDE LASTS LIFETIMES!!
for those who love you most
I see you time to time
beneath the sorrow tree
now watered
by countless tears
from the eyes of those
who love you
didn't you believe
the creator of life
when He said
He'd stand by you
didn't you believe
Isaiah 41:10
that He was there
for you, my friend
I see through the pain
as I sit by the phone
that ever conceals your voice

the yards we once played in
the homes by the sea
the tree by the sea
our own special tree
once watered with love
our hearts
in agreement
the clarity of love
we shared
beneath the sorrow tree
I sit silently buried, deep as the roots
of the sorrow tree
the years make no difference
to the many hearts shattered
drowned beneath the sea
of the love
they still have for you
if the roots of your pain
were as deep as the roots
of our tree by the shore
that you had to end the hurt
why didn't you turn to me?
for now we see that
you have died your death
we have ours yet to live
unending unhappiness
permeates the room
as I sit by the phone in silence
I see us
in my mind, hand in hand
I see us
as we stroll down the beach
I see us
we walk, we talk, we plan.
Now when I walk
I don't see us
alone, when I walk
I don't see us
now all I see is sand
just sand.
 




"Epilogue"


I thought I saw your face in a flower
I guess we all have memories to bear
if I had known how short the bloom
of life would be within you
I would've shown you more that I cared
if I had known the pains inside you
I would have shared them
Sweet flower you were
in memories I now hold dear
Oh; that you'd bloomed sooner
within my broken heart
now your pain has hurt us both
How I wish that I'd been there
for you.







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Wakeitha commented on "Laurie: Suicide Lasts For Lifetimes"

03-22-2011

What a touching poem my friend, ask God for forgiveness and forgive yourself. We as saints be veryhard on ourself. But we got to realize we can't save everybody. We just have to plant the seed and the lord will water it so it will grow and bloom.

If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry.

Emily Dickinson (1830-1886) American poet.

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