Suicide Note

I've been living too long with this constant pain
I just don't think that anything will be the same
So as I lay my head to cry
I realize now is my time to die
So here's my last words to the ones I love
I will be watching you from up above
Dad, I'm sorry for all I've done
But I'm so happy for how far you've come
I've been your princess all my life
But I feel like things just can't go right
Keep me in your heart each and every day
And remember me at night when you pray
Mom, I always stuck by your side
And I heard you at night when you cried
You put so much weight on my shoulders
And made me feel like I was 10 years older
I'm sorry I left you and moved away
Deep down inside, I wanted to stay
You're the only mom I'll ever know
And the talks we had, they helped me grow
Kelly, my sister and my great friend
I'll be in your heart until the end
We shared a room for 18 years
I'm sorry if I brought you to tears
Jackie, my big brother, you're always high
You turned into a completely different guy
I was always right there next to you
Trying to fix the problems you went through
Brett, my angel, my handsome boy
You always brought me comfort and joy
I sang to you every night
And tucked you in bed nice and tight
Carry me with you wherever you go
When you need me there, always know
I'll be in your heart every day
I'll be gone, but I won't be far away
Papa Bear, my one true love
The only one I've always ever dreamed of
You make me almost change my mind
But I can't put you through this one more time
You kept me alive for so many years
But I can't keep fighting away my fears
I don't want to leave you here alone
But you'll be better off with me gone
So live your life the best you can
You are the most amazing man
Someone else will steal your soul
And make you feel sompletely whole
So goodbye to you and all my friends
But don't be sad that my life has to end
I'll be watching you from the sky
Now it's time to say goodbye
I'll see you all in heaven soon
Think of me when you lookat the moon