I looked into the crystalline pool of uncertainty,
There reflected was a truth,
A stark moment of absolute clarity,
That I was not enough for you.
No matter the way I twisted and turned,
You were determined to be dissatisfied.
I tried to stand beneath you and
Want the things you did.
You looked at me and told me,
To break open a crate of individuality,
I did, I grew, I blossomed, I flew,
Then you told me, you wished I were more like you.
I sat in adulation, quiet contemplation,
Daring not to breathe a word,
When I did not speak, you took not a care,
Only when I whispered your name,
Did you turn and stare.
In your eyes I saw my fate,
Lain aside in boredom and hate,
I have wasted the years, you meant for another,
Yet you waited, at my side,
Waited to discover,
Your real better other.
Forgive me my sins,
I only ever tried,
To be the best I could,
Wondering when striving,
Would cease to be enough.