"DEATH IN THE FAMILY"

You get the fatefull call
Pins and needles
A plate will hit the wall

Who is it this time?
Dust to dust
Who has committed the crime?

Gloomy Sunday for all to gather
Another family reunion
Any place but here I'd rather

Since the passing of my Dad
I can't bring myself to another of these
I'm just way too sad

Never happier to be sick
Any excuse will do
To not be among the thick

Don't they understand the memories invoked?
My dad was everything that man could never be
I'm feeling very provoked

Usually I love a rainy day
My Dad only had a memorial
In a similar fashion or similar way

I'm still too selfish to think of him
My dad didn't ask for this
But this one went out on a whim

I'm sorry for my cousin's pain
But what he did, the hurt he caused
A young woman feeling shame

How could he do this?
His own grandchild, maybe more
I have no pity, he was way too selfish

It's the people that actually cared
They are left dealing
Knowing that all the townsmen stared

Maybe I sound cold, maybe even mad
Furious is close
You promised you'd always be there for me, Dad!

Someone else has the balls to die
Going on two years
And yet I can't help but cry

I feel so lost without you here
YOU PROMISED ME
I live with so much fear

My heart has been ripped open wide
My aunt's hubby didn't deserve to live
Violating the girl, she could not hide

But my dad was a hero among men
I miss you so much daddy
He was a zero and you are a ten!

I don't think my heart will ever mend
I only pray you found some pride in me
The pride I hold for you I'll forever fend

Just one question to you dad
My pain, it is real, it is raw
Where the hell are you when I hurt this bad?

I could close my eyes and sleep forever and a day
They say that is the cowards way out
My uncle did it, will  he have to pay?

Dori 09aug09