I didn't mean it

I said you knew me,
I just didn't realize it was true.
So now should I be afraid?
In all that time I've never feared you.
I never thought of the price I paid,
I just paid it in full and took off.
Ran away.
One step in front of the other.
Yeah, maybe if it was yesterday.
Here's the thing... you were right.
So yeah, fuck you.
You knew me.
Know me.... who cares if it true.
You used to be the little inkling of light.
Who knows if the day I die
Will be that day I no longer write of you.
So here,
I'll admit this once in every life time.
And believe me when I say I try.
I was wrong.
It scares me how you know me
Better than the line
Of every poem I wrote adressed to you.
It scares me that you know me better
Then I ever meant for you to.
That everything I took
And so long we've been apart.
It scares me that it didn't take a second look
To realize that I trusted you with my soul but never my heart.
So here...
How do you still know me better than I do?
I don't know
But I never meant for you.