To My Father

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    Poem Commentary

    I wrote this on the anniversary of my fathers death.

    To My Father

     They say all wounds heal with time
    And yet I still feel you left me behind
    to wander aimlessly with all these questions
    My pain is like a never ending infections


    Honestly I don't remember what you look like
    I'm so sad I want to take flight
    I know you tried your best as a father
    My pain I never bother


    Shoving it down and living a lie
    I never really did get to say goodbye
    My son can never see his grandfather

    Tearing me from the deepest point of my soul
    My depression, I guess is my tole
    Sitting and suffering with empty answers
    Remembering sitting with you and watching topless dancers


    It's things like that I really miss
    My life will never be complete bliss
    Forever there will be a dark could above
    My feelings I constantly shove


    To a place hidden from all the people around
    Yet I know in the end you will be found
    In the gates of heaven ever looking over
    For I will never find my four leaf clover


    My father for now you've finally left my mind
    Your death and my depression I cannot combine
    I'm not saying goodbye but farewell
    Because my pain brings me hell


    The images of your bettered body always there
    I never said it, but I truly cared
    There are days where I want to throw it all away
    To walk and drown myself in a bay


    You have and always will be an influence to me
    Watch over your grandson I plea
    I feel you all around me and what I do
    Some people say I haven't a clue


    It's just to ****ing hard year by year
    My son not knowing me is my only fear
    I sit and ponder about if I would have come down
    For that I wear this heavy, thorny, crown


    Putting all the blame upon myself
    For taking your life off the shelf
    I'm drowning with guilt for not going
    My true feelings never showing


    Hiding like a little bitch
    my life one big glitch
    Never allowed to change the past
    To sit on the docks and cast


    Your all a faded memory dad
    Knowing your watching over Robert makes me glad
    So I'm deeply sorry for the pain I caused
    Your fatherly figure is applaused


    I miss you deeply and can't wait to see you
    Then my life wouldn't be so blue
    Keep watching over us as we always up
    I think this is the end.....Yep!

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    katrinaLeAnn commented on To My Father

    11-14-2009

    GREAT WRITING HERE....ALMOST SOMETHING LIKE MY STORY..EXCEPT MINES STILL ALIVE AND WORTHLESS. BUT I FELT YOUR DREFT..
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