Im Trying To Figure It Out...

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:D arent relationships with exes FUN?!?!?!

Im Trying To Figure It Out...

I'm always mad at you
and I dont know why,
and I hate how we scream
and how we fight...

I cant let you go,
but we're always on edge;
no matter how bad the fights
it's always, "Are we still friends?"

So what can we do?
How can I make this stop??
I know this sounds insane,
but you were always my rock.

No matter how bad my days,
no matter how down I felt,
all I had to do was come to you,
and you always helped me out.


And now that you're gone,
and at the same time, there?
Its like we talk and listen
but neither of us hear.

We still joke and we laugh,
but things come up and its gone.
We fight to no end,
with our verbal pokes and prods.

We used to love each other,
and now we're full of resentment,
but the funny thing is,
after fighting, we feel contentment.

Crazy, I know,
maybe thats just our way,
fighting lets our emotions out,
then the anger fades...

You say Im a Bitch,
I say your "Soldier" dont fit the bill;
You call me a whore,
so I say "Go to Hell"...

An hour later, we call back,
to apologize.
You say Im not a whore,
I say youre just the right size.

Then its back to joking,
but you know what?
I still dont remeber why we fought
So I try to figure it out...

And come out with nothing...

I'm always mad at you
and I dont know why,
and I hate how we scream
and how we fight...

I cant let you go,
but we're always on edge;
no matter how bad the fights
it's always, "Are we still friends?"

We seriously need to figure things out...

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Amber041792 commented on Im Trying To Figure It Out...

10-12-2010

this is one poem that i can fully relate to. Best thing i've read in a long time. thanks!...not that its a good thing i'm going through the same thing-well sort of- but definitly amazing!

ImStillHere

03/26/2011

bahaha :) thanks ~Audrey

MorsetBillie commented on Im Trying To Figure It Out...

10-11-2010

Talking about harsh realities of breakups and makeups.This can be horrible but it happens.I can c why u r still there,the power of reconciliation.

ImStillHere

10/11/2010

yeah, i mean, he's one of my best friends... i dont like losing friends...~Audrey

Lunabella commented on Im Trying To Figure It Out...

10-11-2010

my favorite stanza was this: "I'm always mad at you and I dont know why, and I hate how we scream and how we fight..." it reminds me so much of me and my guy.

ImStillHere

03/26/2011

thanks for your comment... and yeah, i think a lot of people can relate to this... ~Audrey

If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry.

Emily Dickinson (1830-1886) American poet.

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