Exiting... From Center Stage.

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  • ImStillHere
  • Hey guys. I know it’s been a long while... But I just wanted to tell you guys that I’m having my first child! Due Dec 28th!

Poem Commentary

I guess I should tell you the background on this... My stepdad (whom has always been "dad" to me) was really abusive when I was a child, especially to me and my mom. He always stayed though, like maybe things would change (which they kinda did)... Things are a little better, but he still gets realy intense... and now, bc of all MY own anger, Im getting intense too... And its killing me inside...

Exiting... From Center Stage.

One
    two
        three...
Tick
             Tock
Tick
             Tock...
Four
     five
          six...
Seconds
             go
by
             quick...
But anger stays there for years...

Did
          you
know,
          Dad?
I bet you didnt.
That
          I
hate 
          you?
Nope, you just dont understand.
And
           how
could 
           you?
Its not like I ever talk about it.
But
           then
again
           Dad,
that shouldve been the first clue...

You see silence is the best way
to
           make
sure
           you
dont 
           yell
at
           me...
But who thought that hate would turn
and
           make
hurting
           myself
the
           best
policy?
Rediculous, right?
I
          mean
really?
Slitting
          slivers,
watching the clock go
Tick
          Tock
Tick
          Tock?
Waiting
          for
the
          gun
to
          get
cocked?
And then blasting...
Damn...

I
            never
used
            to
think this way...
And
             its
funny...
'Cause you think I'm changing because of my friends...
But
              really,
Its
all
on
you...

You 
             made 
                            me
                                       this
                                                  way...
You
             think
my
             tantrums
are
              bad?
Just wait...
Because
              obviously
you
               dont
get 
               the
fact...
That you are just making me worse...
So
               go
on
               and
set
               the
stage...
For the biggest show in the world...
The
               day
your
               "baby
girl"...

Leaves...

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fallenknight commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

12-15-2010

I love this poem. It reminds me a lot of my Death Clock poem. It also strikes a chord in my own life, but on the other side. Let the sadness of regret come and wash over me again and again...

ImStillHere

12/16/2010

hmmm i'll check your poem out sometime. :) thanks for commenting ~Audrey

Olan01 commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

12-15-2010

Family relationships are fragile, at best, my young friend; but things do improve I promise you as you mature. Mark Twain once said, and I paraphrase, When i was a teenager I thought my father was so dumb but by the time I reach my mid-twenties I was surprise at how much he had learned in such a short time. I have read that you have not done a good job parenting until your children say they hate you. I hope you stay safe Happy Holiday, Olan.

ImStillHere

12/15/2010

haha maybe, but... sometimes its just not good parenting at all. Its really bad parenting... like, yeah, he may have good intentions, but he goes about it the wrong way. and even then there are times when it has nothing to do with parenting at all... I hope you have a happy holiday too. ~Audrey

ahardwalk commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

12-15-2010

The pain family can install in us is crazy but letting them tear you down and kill you is the worst thing you can do we cant pick our family but we can pick how we handle it and embrace our struggle to help another whose in our footsteps struggling to breath.... Powerful piece!!

ImStillHere

12/15/2010

Thank you. and your advice is sound. the thing is, i dont really know how to handle it. ive kept it all bottled inside for years, ya know? But i definatly would hate letting anyone go through this like i have... ~Audrey

angelchaser commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

12-14-2010

You have no idea how badly I wish I lived in Texas right now. I wanna help you so bad and I can't and THAT'S killing me. *hugs*

ImStillHere

12/15/2010

I know you do hun... but dont worry about me, kay? ill figure out how to handle things. I mean, ive handled it for about 10 years already... ~Audrey

Chaos128 commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

12-14-2010

Ouch! All fastballs, high and inside. And here I was gonna tell you you remind me of Ellen Page : D

ImStillHere

12/14/2010

ha Juno... HOW? (but yes, i know. if i softened it up, then it kinda loses... everything.) ~Audrey

Poetry is what is lost in translation.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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