Confessions of Her

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my friend, C, is the funniest person you would ever meet... but she has a lot of problems. She is an addict. She drinks, smokes, has sex with guys she's never even met before... and its tearing her apart. Here's to Her.

Confessions of Her

some days i just want to die
but no one really knows this...
because i keep it all inside
and hope no one will notice...

that the small cuts on my legs
that look so innocent to them...
are really just me holding back
because any longer,
deeper
would make me have to explain...

that im no longer in the fight
that everyone is in...
the fight to find good in my life
is a fight i will not win...

that every tip of this bottle
makes me feel okay...
it numbs my mind just enough
to make it through the day...

that whenever i hit that pipe,
that bong,
that joint
i feel some comfort no one can give...
i see that smoke fly away
drifting off with the wind...

that every touch of their hands
on my body makes me feel...
that i am loved and beautiful,
even though that love isnt real...


some days i just want to die
but no one really knows this...
because i keep it all inside
and hope no one will notice...

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christianprep commented on Confessions of Her

11-14-2010

Very Loyal friend, But if it gets worse u need to tell someone i had a step sister and it turned into suicide thoughts lucky her mom saw her face-book before she deleted it.... i don't know what i would do if i had a friend or a family member who was suffering like ur friend but i do know i would do the same thing be a friend..

ImStillHere

11/14/2010

we actually all pitched in to put her into rehab. :) shes okay now, but still does the same stuff. not random sex acts, but pot and stuff. ~Audrey

DeepEclipse commented on Confessions of Her

07-28-2010

You honor her. Love must truly be a necessary ingredient. As vital as air perhaps. And not the TV type commercial love shit. The loyalty. The understanding. The friendship. Without it sin calls to us with open arms and how loved we feel in its embrace. It's empty embrace. I like how you show you understand her in this piece. Beneath the surface. That is what true friendship is all about.

ImStillHere

07/30/2010

Thank you... its true, i do love her very much. which is weird considering how much we hated each other the last couple of years...

To have great poets there must be great audiences too.

Walt Whitman, American Poet (1819-1892)

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