Life Sucks

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A lot of people would never know that I came from an abusive family... I am constantly smiling, laughing, joking around... Before my parents (mom and stepdad) started going to an outpatient drug-rehab, I would never come out of my room once I got home from school... I just couldnt. Things are better now... But I still harbor a lot of hate for my parents. Justified?

Life Sucks

I hated the way
He yelled at Her
when the drugs wore off
and he wanted more...

I hated it
when She took Him back
time and again,
"He didnt mean it..."

I hated it
when He would apologize
then turn around
and make Her cry...

I hated Her
when She said
how She hated ME
and wished I was dead...

I hated Him
the way He said
things that made me wish
He would hit me instead...

I hated them Both
when they fucked down the hall
three days after
He threw me against a wall...

I loved the day
I said to His face
how He could never
take my dad's place...

That I hated Him
with all my heart...
Til She said
"Thanks Audrey, for tearing the family apart"...

Then I hated myself,
so much that I left;
then hated me more
when I came back again...

Because I loved my sisters
to much to leave them
in the hands and mercy
of a drug-crazed heathen...

Because I'd rather
be His target
then have Her hurt
when he felt like arguing...

So I stay now,
to protect and act strong,
just 'til they're big enough...

Which wont be long...

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angelchaser commented on Life Sucks

12-20-2010

I wish so badly that this weren't true. You're such a sweet girl, I hate to think of you in pain. Were it in my power, you and your sisters would never be hurt by him again. Any man who hits a female, is FOREVER my enemy. I've known many women over the years who've suffered horrible abuse. I know this is just words and anyone can say anything, but I swear to you, I would give my life to keep you from harm. *hugs*

Olan01 commented on Life Sucks

11-26-2010

Abuse is to wide spread in our families and the world. Taking on the abuse yourself is also too common and sad in our lives but there is a point when one must either report it or walk away. My best friend suffer unbelievable abuse as a child and she was taken away to foster homes to suffer more abuse. You have written from your heart and that is good and I praise you for that effort and enjoyed the result in honest poetry. Love, peace and freedom, Olan.

rsalassi commented on Life Sucks

11-26-2010

I know from persoanl experience exactly where you're coming from. (My poem about my mother "The legacy of Lady Ruby Russell" might interest you). Aside from the two tiny errors ( too much instead of to much ....and than instead of then), the poem displays your strength, your imagination, your facility with words. Excellent.

ImStillHere

11/26/2010

thanks i know it bugs me too when people make little errors like that. :) thanks for correcting me. and thank you for your comments. ~Audrey

JazzyLynn commented on Life Sucks

09-06-2010

I've been here... twice.. i know how it is.. i wish i could help...

crazydude commented on Life Sucks

08-14-2010

wow...so true... i cant put in words... beautiful...

Poetry is either something that lives like fire inside you or else it is nothing, an empty formalized bore around which pedants can endlessly drone their notes and explanations.

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