Driving down a pitch black road,
I see a small light...
Its in the distance and its drawing me in.

I zone out a bit and gaze into its brightness,
I can't look away...
Its getting closer and drawing me in.

I try to refocus and blink but I just can't stop staring,
I hear my own heart beat...
Its coming apon me quickly and still drawing me in.

I feel my truck slow down, to almost a stop,
and the light is right in my face...
I still can't turn away, its drawing me in.

The light is a lady, cloudy and translucent,
reaching her hand out to me...
We lock eyes, and she draws me in.

She curls her finger at me, telling me to come closer,
She whispers shes here to draw me in...
I cock my head, confused. "Draw me in?" I ask.

Silence, and she nods...


Urrrrch....


Boom...


My truck spins and twirls around like a Frisbee,
and I can't seem to catch my breath.

Once it comes to a stop I comprehend Ive been hit...
The first thing I do is remember my kids are in the back.

I turn around and see them asleep in their car seats,
I touch each of their faces, just to make sure they're OK.

I hear their steady sleeping breath,
 and realize I haven't taken a breath of my own yet.

I take a gulp of air and look up to the sky,
letting my tears billow as if the flood gates were lifted.
And I say,

"Jesus take me, take the very breath you have given me.
Take every blessing you have given me,
every wish you have granted.
Punish me for my sins,
and take me from this earth for living wrong.
But please, don't take my children.
They are the best thing to ever happen to me,
and without them I would diminish to nothing.
But they can live without me, and this I trust.
So take me and leave them unharmed,
so they can bless the world with they're love. 
For I have had 3 wonderful years with them,
and will watch over them from wherever you send me."

I am bleeding and in pain,
blood trickles into my eyes...
but I see a small light and its drawing me in.

I see the lady gliding back towards me,
she reaches out her hand to me...
I can't help but take one more look at my kids as I go.

They sit there in our battered SUV, sound asleep,
as if to not have a care in the world...
and I can't help but smile, as the tears fall.

I know they will miss me,
but its okay because Ill be watching them...
I know I won't be able to look away.

We start to drift away when I ask,
"Can we stay,
just until someone comes to help?"

All she does is point and I see them...
Blue, red and white lights,
 screaming their way towards us.

I know it is time for me to go...
And there is nothing I can do to stop it.

I look at the lady pulling me away and she must see it...
She must see it in my eyes.
The motherly need to touch your child one more time.

She nods at me and that's all I need.

I race back to my truck and see my angels inside...
I touch their cheeks and kiss their foreheads.

I drift off just as the E.M.T.s pull up...
One of them opens the rear passenger door,
and takes out my daughter.
Another opens the rear driver, and takes out my son.

They both cry out for me because they are frightened,
then they both see the small light...

I wave to them.
I blow them a kiss.
 And I disapear into the sky to watch over them.