Burdens on a Sinners Wings

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    I am in a place right now where I cant love God. I truly hope that I am not alienated by the world because of this. But I just want to be honest. All of my life I was raised as a christian, taught to love God, and I still do. But right now I hate him too. I am angry that God knows everything, he knew how this world would turn out, and he brought us here and gave us free will anyway. I am just in a state of hurt, because tragedy is the new norm. And my God wont bring it to an end.

    Burdens on a Sinners Wings

    I am torn...
    There is a girl that resides in me that wants to believe that God is real...
    I know what mother said....
    Believe and honor in the lord all the days of your life...
    And in mine I have known him to be true...
    But now that I see the wretched state of the world...
    What am I to do?
    I die in this misery every day that I open my eyes...
    Every time some little girls get raped just before the sun rise
    who am I?
    Some moral being whom only wants this world to bathe over in love...
    I am no angel,
    I don’t have wings
    I am not clothed in white
    like those beautiful heavenly things,
    I am just a girl with big bright eyes
    misunderstood
    because in me no one can find where the pain resides
    I cry because some stranger will take away some life that I may never know
    I cry because someone will beat a child senseless and not even blink
    I cry because someone will stone a lesbian because they don’t understand
    I cry because I don’t have the salvation in my hands
    I cry because I will die and leave my baby behind
    I cry because this world is only evil now, and I am shocked when someone is kind
    I cry because I believe in a God who would make an earth in the first place...
    I cry because I love a God who can’t explain this to me.
    I cry because no matter how many lives I want and will try to save, there will always be one who will die trying to find saving grace...
    I cry because there is God in me, but I hate that I must see his Face...

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    LenaM commented on Burdens on a Sinners Wings

    11-29-2010

    What a powerful piece , so intense , so full of pain, hurt, sorrow , despair and above all honesty ! Well done if you feel inclined stop by and have a look at some of my pieces . I think you will see I understand this place you are in
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    blvdobd2009

    11/30/2010

    i will definately be sure to stop by your page I love reading the beautiful works of others, I am sure that you have wonderful art there. Thank you for your words, you guys will never know how much it means to me thank you!

    WordSlinger commented on Burdens on a Sinners Wings

    10-21-2010

    This is very intense, and it shows your strength, and it shows your love for yourself and life around you. In this univers not all things are divine. I for my self see these things also, but I choose not to let them get the best of me, and believe me kiddo, everyday, I am faced with the challenge of love or anger. Anger rages, but love turns the pages. and if not the enduring pages of ones life can get pretty ygly, like the great lines you write her. Focus on what good there is in the world, and the bad will be easier to shake off your back. Great Write, ty WS
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    blvdobd2009

    10/22/2010

    Again Thank you... I try everyday to look for the good left in this world, and I dont want to lie to you as I am trying, it is getting harder and harder to find. But that is where my strength needs to come into play and where I should stop looking at the world as half full. You are beautiful... Thank you for understanding.

    DeepEclipse commented on Burdens on a Sinners Wings

    10-20-2010

    I personally think we've all been here. Maybe most won't admit it, due to its extreme contradicting nature, but I know I have. And still struggle with it daily. This piece exposes to me one who seems to be "forced" to be faithful, through a more oppressive means than a reasonable one. Creating a suffocation because the individual perspective isn't respected. I do believe God to be reasonable, as He was with Abraham when Abraham was questioning His intentions. I applaud your bravery for writing this piece. Questioning things can lead to great truths, since truth rarely resides on the surface.
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    blvdobd2009

    10/20/2010

    This comment is dedicated to my two faithful viewers...to DeepEclipse and Mr. Talbain.... I just want to say that I really wanted to cry when I read each of your responses. At this point I spend most of my time doing just that weeping at the state of the world. But I know that I cannot remain in this state, because my work for this world will never get done. So I want to say thank you for not judging me as I pass through this state I want to say thankyou for allowing me to just be, do nothing more than just be. And you two have my deepest sincerity when I say that I always look forward to your thoughts. Thank you my dear poetic friends.

    JonTalbain commented on Burdens on a Sinners Wings

    10-20-2010

    As I grew up, I was oft told; "For all things work for the good of those that love the Lord and are called according to His Purpose". While it is for us quintessential for us to understand why He allows what he allows, we miss the biggest portion of the picture in the grand schema of things. So to this I say, that your heart weeps for the tragedies of the world, be of good courage and wait on The Lord. All things will make sense in their own time. The violence of the world will never change, but The Lord who has called you out of darkness and into His Marvelous Light, will show you all in time. Be a champion of social justice, but do not lose heart.
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    blvdobd2009

    10/20/2010

    This comment is dedicated to my two faithful viewers...to DeepEclipse and Mr. Talbain.... I just want to say that I really wanted to cry when I read each of your responses. At this point I spend most of my time doing just that weeping at the state of the world. But I know that I cannot remain in this state, because my work for this world will never get done. So I want to say thank you for not judging me as I pass through this state I want to say thankyou for allowing me to just be, do nothing more than just be. And you two have my deepest sincerity when I say that I always look forward to your thoughts. Thank you my dear poetic friends.

    If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry.

    Emily Dickinson (1830-1886) American poet.

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