i am aware (i'm already dead)


i am aware (i'm already dead)

i am aware (i’m already dead)

i am aware of my heart in my chest as it beats
and the air in my lungs as i inhale and breathe
i am aware of the thoughts in my head as i think
and the lies in my eyes of the things that i see

i am aware of the touch that my fingers can feel
and the pain of emotions that murder and kill
i can drown in the tears of my eyes as they fill
and silence my cries with a handful of pills

i am aware of the fight that i face up ahead
and the misery that grows from the pain it is fed
i am aware that my body feels weighted with lead
and fight the reality that i'm already dead

i am aware of the slice that is made by the blade
and with time the scars simply lighten and fade
i am aware that this life gives all you can take
and pushes the bounderies with sorrow and pain

i am aware of the pain as it continues to grow
as the slices of life on my skin start to show
i am aware of the things that i already know
and i cover my eyes as tears start to flow

i am aware that the future is just an unknown
and it scares me to death based on what i've been shown
i am aware wht it means for some to go "home"
but my need is to sleep and to reap what is sewn

i am aware of my heart as it beats in my chest
and the air that i breathe as i exhale my breath
i am aware of the thoughts that run through my head
and the thought s that tell me that i'm already dead

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toredbloodink commented on i am aware (i'm already dead)


Wow... Not dead but alive... Stand as I applaud you.. Great job of being aware... Thank you for sharing this master piece....

JLorian commented on i am aware (i'm already dead)


This piece is exceptional. Nice flow, rythme and rhyme.

JadedJezzabel commented on i am aware (i'm already dead)


WORD....I know exactly what you mean. You are a fantastic writer. you gently reel the reader in and get them all wrapped up in the emotion of the words you chose. Awsome. honest......and real!



thanks so much for the kind words

earthly commented on i am aware (i'm already dead)


Mindful of all the senses around you and within you-insightful stuff-well done-Namaste...Earthly



thank you earlthly...

knight4696 commented on i am aware (i'm already dead)


Dano - This is another well written piece. Aside from some speling errors .... the flow is good. (spelling errors trip me up and stop the flow) The imagery is good and the emotion is very tangible . Nice job! .... Ken ...................... You may want to correct the following; " i am aware wht (what)" and "to reap what is sewn (sown)"

In science one tries to tell people, in such a way as to be understood by everyone, something that no one ever knew before. But in poetry, it's the exact opposite.

Franz Kafka (1883-1924) Czech writer.

Dano’s Poems (150)

Title Comments
Title Comments
from an angels view 19
searching the darkness 10
a letter from santa 14
thanksgiving (acrostic) 12
the depth of... 11
ive wished 7
absentee 12
this is... 13
a journey into the dark 7
the cold of november 14
your voice 12
the yin to the yang 14
twisted 9
autumn 14
i think it happened again 11
luna~tic 19
the darkness 13
a blinding eclipse 16
the universe... 18
the wind of sorrow 14
my sorrow weeps 16
where but the dark... 12
immortal kiss 47
in a darkened room 17
our mother 7
within these flames 12
nocturnal (acrostic) classic rock 7
behind wrought iron bars 25
what i write (part 2) 8
today 17
the world in grey 6
the reality of... 5
in the shadow of a mountain 6
nothing will ever be the same 10
of cemetary dreams (and nightmare scapes) 12
next to a bed... 18
but... 15
at a funeral 12
seventeen (acrostic) 11
the fortunate one(s) 7
what did i do... 24
ashes to dust 45
dancing in the moonlight 14
disempowering the pain 14
the butterfly 10
what i write 14
sorry (i killed the after glow) 11
the humidity rises (an erotic tale) 9
pieces of light 8
the sad pumpkin &... 9
my face 12
for a long time... 14
(an explination of) distractions 6
tell me... 6
the charelston cookie tin 9
silent self destruction 8
exposed 13
the means of the day (a true valentines poem) 2
a poem about nothing... 8
blood bleeds black 7
dissecting myself 3
i will be just fine 3
the stacking of bricks 3
the complexities of depression... 4
spirits & ghosts 3
**random chaos** 2
bloodlust 3
...somethings missing... 2
15 years... 3
beauty sleeps entombed (parts 1 & 2) 3
**untitled** 2
the overstuffed closet 3
the candy dish 2
anxiety speaks 2
**untitled** 2
myself and the light 6
the fog 2
fire and tears 3
cerebral meltdown 3
sometimes i wish... 1
drawing strength from a starr... 2
**untitled** 1
the flower garden 3
nature... 1
reaching out 2
the dark and the light... 1
the insistent demon 2
sorry... 3
forgive me lover... (parts 1 & 2) 2
im so sorry... 3
**no title... just random thoughts** 1
to eternity... 2
winter wind whips... 1
tired 2
lucid dream 1
the rains came... 2
the mourning light 1
another jagged pill 1
i just cant... 1
burning within 4
inside of me 1
projected pain 1
the night... the dakness & the truth? 1
panic 2
the mourning fog 1
when the fires burn 1
through the night 1
shadow casts 0
a mournful rain 1
i cant protect me 2
my comfort place 0
an echo shifts 1
the monster 2
welcome to my life 0
the past is alive... 1
... 1
standing on the edge 2
my smile... 1
anxiety 2
my reality 0
another view... 0
untitled... 0
jagged pill 2
in the dark 1
what to do 1
how can i... 1
life... 3
a crust of pain 1
keeping me weak... 2
my dark world 3
another night of wondering 2
in the attic 4
i hold most dear 2
the me inside of me 2
another day 1
dreamed in a dream 2
a year in the life (dealing with death) 1
i look... 1
where my secrets are kept 1
a mouthful of words 2
i will not fear (when my eyes are blind) 2
i am aware (i'm already dead) 7
standing in the silence of my own shadow... 3
a blinding dark 1
growing pain 3
the longest of nights 5
... 7